Have you ever had God speak directly to you...in almost an audible voice? I have to say I have had it happen, only a few times. I mean He speaks to me all the time, but these times I am referring to it has been very different. One time I was at Church and we were singing...I can't even remember what song. Kyle and I were going through a rough time of waiting for children. I was feeling very overlooked...unchosen. Then it was like God said just to me, "I am not, not choosing you". I guess that may not make a lot of sense, but it made perfect sense to me. It wasn't a direct answer to why we hadn't been blessed with children yet, but it did heal the whole I had in my heart thinking I had been overlooked. It made me realize I was missing out on my life, because I was so focused on what the future may or may not have been holding. I needed to focus on the One who was holding my future instead.
This past Sunday it happened again. I have really been struggling with my son lately. He is rowdy, curious, asks 5 million questions, and must debate every point. I have been thinking he will never surrender His life to God, he won't even go to the potty when I ask him to. Then once again I was in Worship singing...and God said, "He is like a lion." God was reminding me that Landon is wired just how He wants him...like a lion. During our wait for our first child, I purchased a stuffed lion. We weren't sure when our first child would come, but we wanted him or her to know God's character. We also love how CS Lewis relates that character with Aslan in the Narnia series. So Landon does life like a lion, ready to roar. I do not need to be worried about all that passion, after all Kyle and I prayed he would follow passionately after Christ almost every night after we knew I was expecting. Again I need to focus on the one who holds Landon's future, not so much on what the future may or may not hold. I can't tame a lion, but I know God can.